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12.28.02
2:02 a.m.

i am so disturbed right now. i've been looking thru my old entries. and i saw the one about my uncle. i got reminded about what happened all over again. i read some article on what his ex wife said.. she said he was psycho..

i was thinking.. well .. my dad seems to be psycho at times.. and so do i.. so what the fuck, are we just a bunch of fucking psychos? great.

anyway. chris will be here in 2 days. i can't wait for us to be able to hold eachother again. i miss him so much. i can't believe we actually made it thru these past months. its been so damn hard. probably harder for him too. cause i've been pulling a lot of bullshit, which i regret doing, but i dont know how i could've stopped myself from flipping out and shit. i really hate this long distance shit.. its so fucking hard. but i believe in the end it'll be worth it. i believe that in my heart....

well he's waiting for me.. on msn.. so i go talk again.. and tell him that i updated so he can read.. =P lol.. later

holly


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